All about Amy
Nature lover, playfully spirited, deep emotion feeler, big open hearted lover of all things love, very serious about guiding people to deeper connection, and love a good laugh!
If someone was interviewing me and I was asked 'what is one thing you wish people knew about you?' I would say, I delight in the small things, I relish in the abundance of beauty all around me, I carry a childlike innocence and wonderment and my hearts deepest desire is to share this innocence, magic and beauty with the world.
A little story of how I landed here...
When I think of my inner child and when I picture my highest self, there is a common theme of wonderment and awe. In my inner child's eyes it is expressed as squealing joy and intoxicating glee. My highest self carries this presence of grace and deep deep gratitude and reverence. The journey I have walked and continue to walk is one that brings me into deeper and deeper connection to this highest expression of my soul.
Like most of us, as I grew and traversed my first decade or so I became disconnected from this expression and from any remembering of my soul's greater plan. My life (perfectly) led me down a path of a toxic relationship to the masculine, absolute disconnection from my femininity, no real ties to Mother Earth and a very over-worked anxious mind. These things manifested in very turbulent relationship experiences (very push-pull, very co-dependent), very strained relationships with women and no real ability to hold space for women (aka no ability to hold space for myself), no wonderment or joy from the gifts of nature (much more interested in material things), no ownership of my emotions (especially the big ugly ones), oh and to top it off, diagnosed and medicated general anxiety disorder at 23!! There are so so many things I could add to that list, but I think you get the jist - life was happening to me, I was a complete passenger, absolutely stuck in the victim seat!!
In reflection, there were moments through my 20's where I can see I was being presented another path, I can see where my higher self tried to pop through, but it wasn't until I was 30, travelling the world after quitting my very well paying corporate mining job (spent 14 years in the construction industry hiding my femininity!) that I had become slow enough and in deep awe and wonderment of the places I was visiting and the cultures I was immersing in that I heard my soul whisper..... "it's time to study yoga and be a yoga teacher." WHAT!?! From lead smelters and hi-vis to yoga studios and lycra?? Sure mind, sure. But sure enough the voice didn't go away. I became obsessed with yoga and 9 months later found myself plonked in my first 200hr YTT. I ended up studying a 500hr YTT and yet never found a true soul resonance to standing at the front of a room guiding people into postures. I yearned for more. I yearned for people's hearts to be reveled and opened.
What yoga gave me though was an immeasurable gift. My gratitude runs so deep for my yoga teachers who immersed me into a world of very traditional, very potent yoga philosophy which also led me to India to spend time in the Ashram of the yoga school's lineage. Life changing stuff. My world had been cracked open - to the ego, the higher self, the soul, the energy bodies, meditation, our essential nature beyond this physical realm of earth. Each new revelation of the teachings felt like coming home and I began to take the first steps of remembering myself.
Fast forward 18 months, having just studied NLP, Timeline Therapy and Hypnotherapy and realising that I deeply desired to coach people and work with them 1 on 1, I find myself sitting (again randomly) at a Cacao Facilitator training!! Only 10 or so weeks earlier I woke up thinking of Cacao. I had been to 1 cacao ceremony before that (on a life changing trip to Bali) but thought nothing of it (other than the insane amount of tears I shed!), Alas, Cacao came to me and never left. I found myself looking to buy this expensive chocolate online when I came across a facilitator course. Again mind... WHAT!?! Yet there I was, in Norther NSW, about to have my heart blown open in ways I didn't even know was possible.
Put very simply - communing with the Spirit of Cacao changed my life. A somewhat tangible explanation is, I feel like I have somewhere to land and I have a practice which I know brings me home, to my heart, to my connection with the natural world and the energetic realms, and a practice which ever-deepen my remembering of who I am and why I came. Also, (and super importantly) this plant medicine has gifted me immense heart healing. In the early days, my first 'message' from Cacao was this (picture hands being held out to you with open palm): "I'm holding your heart, you are safe. The pain you are feeling is not your heart breaking, it is your heart trying to crack open. Let it. It's why I am here." Honestly, the grace and love of this plant medicine is enough to blow your heart wide open if you let it.
Where to from here?
I trust this story has helped you feel me and learn a few things about me. What I am so grateful for in my journey to this point is all the places, experiences, lessons, learnings, trials and triumphs I have played a role in or witnessed to collect so many wisdom moments to guide others home to themselves.
We aren't so different, you and me. We have traversed different paths, yet the longing of the heart and the call of the highest self sounds mighty similar. I am here to guide any soul who feels a resonance to me and this path of deepening connection.
All my love,
Amy xxx
